Sedate me please!

Another day... another morning of strugglin to haul myself from the comfort of my bed and into the unbearable light of day... I cant remember the last time i had a nap or slept before 1. Ok... I'm an old man... I cant stay up like i used to... before i could have been up till the first rays of dawn, now.. i can barely keep myself from fallin off my chair and snoring on the floor.

Bad news... Even cigs dont work... they keep me awake for that extra 5min or so... so yea... even nicotine cant cut it anymore. Do i need a rest? YES! Had to rough it out on the train from dover to pasir ris nearly the entire of last week to settle my friend's marine stuff... Help to pick up coral and LS and at the same time place orders for my own tank. Even the weekend was busy. Couldnt find time for a catnap. I envy my Chloe... she falls asleep anywhere and anytime. I dont have the luxury of that anymore. will any kind soul pls drug me on sedatives or tranquilize me sometime this week? I would love to be knocked out for several hours comatose to everything....

Ok... not so good or bad news... I have more jobs... Now i have a confirmed Sunday tuition session at simei in the mornings and someone has approached me to help in buyin fish. So i guess my weekends next week will be mostly paya lebar on saturday evenings and simei on sun mornings. which leaves me free only on sunday after lunch. Like where did my saturday go?

Anxiously waiting for next month where my cash comes in.... i need to get wasted one more time. I'm becoming an alcoholic dammit... Seems the only time i really feel refreshed is the night after a good drinking session with a touch of nicotine and a sprinkling of good music accompanied by a side of good company. Its good to finally be able to catch up with everyone and juz have fun at some pub and drink till i look like a boiled lobster. The feeling is soooooo damn good!

Speaking of which... i got invited to Europa by my war advisor... Tryin to round up some able bodied personnel to raid the place on the 4th of sept. Heard last nite its also awfully close to another friend's birthday too.... so...... I'm not really sure which one's a go... both look to be a good time in the making. Let the heaven's decide on my fate... Am i meant to get majorly wasted? We shall shee.... Wahahahahahahaha

Arghhhh.... juz found out i need to get some formal attire for presentation on the 14thor 15th week of my term which is about a month away... Like since when do i do formal? I dont have a clue what to do.... HELP! SOS! MAYDAY! And no jeans either.... Are they pushin me to suicide? Its gonna be a sight to see me in a long sleeved dress shirt and pants w leather shoes and tie... The guys will probably laugh their heads off at the sight of the redneck in formal... *shudders*

Thats it... Like i neeeeeeedddddd a dose of Zoloff... Medic... medic....

Heck's ever widenin' hole

Just finished puttin away the last of that mess that called itself pasta... DeliFRANCE has a france in it for a reason, they do not do italian.... I had no idea what i was eating back there... cheese and some weird vegetable with cold pasta. I will never eat that again i swear~~~

Have you looked around you on the MRT and take a good look at the people inside? I did. And i realised i'm sittin in a freak show... Like how often do you see someone who grows his goatee on his neck? What's up with that? Went over board with that last face lift or your genes forgot where the hair was supposed to grow from? Or are you juz too moronic to know where a goatee is supposed to be?

Then we have the "Dressers"... These are the people who think they're leading the fashion culture when they in reality are the "Most Wanted" by the fashion police. I've seen middlegaed women wear colors that would make a blind person mince and cover his eyes... And guys wearing trench coats and cowboy hats tryin to look like the Undertaker or cool to a certain effect.... I've seen scarecrows look better and cooler lookin bovines.

There are the "Hey-I'm-trying-to-be-young" old people too. I'm not against them trying to look youthful... but please have some common sense... if you're 50 odd... please dont try to dress like you were 18? I went blind temporarily when this old lady walked by in this jean hot pants and bustier top and jean jacket.... Cellulite was everywhere... I could see men flee from her as she lumbered thru the train... What did i do to derserve that?

The last are the plain weirdos... dress like mental patients and look like keith richard's clones... Do not make eye contact with these people. You have been warned..... So next time when you take the subway, do look around. You will be surprised.

Well.... I've been selected to go to 'Nam. Got the good news today... Have a meeting next month about the work we'll be doing there. Somehow i don't feel that thrilled even though I want to be in this trip.

My friend asked me what kinda dad i'll be.... which is a very interesting thing.... will i be a disciplinarian or a godsend to my kids? My friend asked me this when i was playin/torturing her son... "Will you play with your kid like this?" I was.. YUP. But yet i have that disciplinarian streak in me... I think i would not hesitate to use the rod if my kid acts up. And yet i wouldnt hestitate to fool around with them like monkeys. I know most would say they wont hit their kids, and are now probably givin me the evil eye right about now... But think about it. Look at all the kids nowadays... I see 6year olds teasin their parents/grandparents and giving sarcastic answers to them. What the hell has gone wrong here? Kids are misbehaving openly and we all seem to not care or have no clue what to do about it. To me is if words dont work then i guess you gotta use some corporal punishment. I'm not sayin you should beat then about the house and break them like some ogre.... no... i mean dispense with it sparingly and at the right amounts. Only if my kid pushes the envelope will i spank him/her... if not i will probably be foolin around with them as much as time allows me too. I love kids... being an uncle/grand uncle to 9 kids (at last count) helps... But now i dont see them that often anymore except during CNY or some important family gathering. I dont even recognise some of them anymore.... which makes me want to treasure the times i have with my kids during their childhood.

I would be the dad that would take them out for outings every weekend and the big monkey that entertains when i get home from work. To give them whatever i can and enforce strict rules at the same time. A dad to the bone as someone put it....

AVP is out! I need to catch that movie. Too bad we all know the ending... Its just too predictable. But hell... the new shit looks cool. I wanna see the Aliens and Preds finally duke it out. Anyone with me?!

Retrospective

I smoke too much.... But due to losing my not so slack lifestyle, I've come to rely on nicotine to hold me in the land of the living. Addiction has set in, yes, i'm an addict for sure... Cant believe i did 20 sticks yesterday... What is wrong with me? Must beat this addiction... i shant bring any cigarettes with me to school tomorrow. Go partially cold turkey... how i could see Song laughin at me now... hahaha

Ok. I think i shall bask in singlehood and leave women alone... I'm kinda enjoyin my new found freedom. And when i hear about my friends' relationship worries/problems i feel so much relieved that i do not have such issues in my life... life is soooo much less complicated when you're alone. Thats coz u dun need to care about another person's feelings and needs.... It would kill me to be chained up and caged.

As for thang.... i think i need to, as in mat terms, go relac one corner... I know he doesnt mean it but i cant understand the things that he does. Hiding from me will only make things worse and make me pissed... And well, the certain hypocrisy is makin me irritable. I was at fault for bottlin up so now i need to relax... cant wait for next saturday's kayaking.

Tomorrow i should know about whether i'm selected to go to 'nam or not.... should be a good trip.... i'm lookin forward to it provided i get selected first. It doesnt help that i blundered by sas=yin i forgot all my first aid back in NS. But that was 2years ago... the only thing i recall is how to fireman lift the guy to safety.... i failed my arm sling test... ended up mummifyin the fella with my F.A.D....

Have class at 10 am tomorrow which means i gotta wake at 8.30am... gahhhhhhhh...
might as well kill me and get it over with. Its a monday dammit... you dont give morning class on a MONDAY. People die more often on mondays due to stress...shouldnt that be kinda like a warning sign? And i'd probably sleep thru my "moral" class. What do you want me to learn? I have the understandings of morals but i juz dont use them.... who does anymore? C'mon... theres a reason why we dont see more mother theresas or gandhis roamin the earth. Morals in today's society doesnt really work. It'd be better if they taught us some "Art of War" or some war like craft to slay business rivals in the future.

Man... the songs i recieved last nite were good. Now addicted to "Joey"... added it to my handphone's card... will most likely blast it tomorrow morning in the train and disturb the workin crowd... hahahaha.

Up, up and away~ Part II

I think i have reached to the point that i have drunk till i have gone beyond high... i feel surprisingly clear headed after a shower and unfortunately very awake... and i have to go out early tomorrow morning... Gahhhhhh

The band at walla wallas was good as usual... that will be my usual haunt from now on... hahaha. I love that place and the bands are really good. The company was great too... Time passes fast when you're having fun. Watto was as usual... comical to the max... and held his liqour surprisingly well.. even though we like demolished that entire bottle of tequila.. Carpe Diem to all... we may have not accomplished anything in life but we made ourselves happy. Thats all that counts. Be happy guys, we are what we make ourselves to be.

got my 1st sunburn in like 5months... but it feels good. I love the activity... kayakin is someething i really miss...

damn... i look like some long beach chilli crab... i will end here for now till i regain full control of my fingers...

Anytime Anyplace

Its a good feelin when you pound someone into submission without even the use of physical force... Thats like the best victory you can possibly achieve, the winning of a war bloodlessly and nothing better knowin that you crushed your enemy with but your mouth... or in my case... words...
This all couldnt have been done w/o my allies. And my war advisor who takes special mention, "Thanks babe! i would've stumbled a few times there if you werent there to give me a slap on the head when i needed it."

The weekend is here again... and yet i dont seem to be free... my weekend is like FULLY booked since LAST weekend. I need to be booked like a month beforehand now... hahahahahaha. I have alot of catching up to do with the guys of ye olde guarde... Hopefully tomorrow nite we'll all be laughin away like cellmates from IMH and doin our Singapore Idol impressions along the streets of Holland Village and gettin our collective asses locked up for the nite... hahahahahaha. I'm already shakin with laughter as i type this out... maybe coz i havent been this happy for a long time... i have friends, a bitchslappin handed out, a new pet and all the vices of man... hahahahahahaha... except for gambling though... We have too short a life to engage in philosophy or any other time wastin affairs.... Juz seize the damn day and throttle that muthafucka...

Recently the comic blog thing has caught my attention... and well... brings back memories of the old personnel of past. I still have our old sketches of our old comic that was forever stuck in concept. Till in the end we split... I had since done concept work for 2 more series... The 13th and Fear... wonder if we could ever get back together and maybe get one off the ground? hahaha... Get in the leagues of Spawn and Batman and all... that was our dream wasnt it? I wanted to get into the States with our brand of comic... hell.. we all had a grand dream.

Been doing some drawin of late... my hand is rusty dammit... but i'm gettin it back slowly. Feel like doin a comic blog of my own.. But it would have to be R21. hahahahaha... or at least parental advisory advised... My photoshop 7.0 is beckoning me... *must... resist... dark.... urges*

Hmmm... are some women sooooo full of themselves that an invitation for a group outing is called a date? Hellllllooooooooo.... Anyone at home? You are obviously orbitin around Uranus now. Get a life biatch... I'm not desperate and you aint exactly Venus in mortal form... I would seriously dropkick your pathetic ass over tampines mall if you start gettin such ideas in your head. Does not talkin or lookin at you mean anything? Well, if that spells out love then i think i'm passionately obsessed with another 3 billion odd people... *Looooooosserr*

feel kinda bored... maybe i shall do some cooking. Something to pass the time till that 300 pound silverback gorilla trips over me again then its Miller time... Anytime... Anyplace... No mercy... *cue evil laughter*

Fire and Brimstone

This entry today is for all the damn crap that i'm sick about.... basically its time to spew all my gripes with the world out on the digital manuscript.

In the last 24 hours... I've been bugged by 2 types of people i can never stand. First, is the type who repays your kindness with lies and backstabbing... It doesnt help that he's a mammoth, rotound boulder like lard bucket, who thinks he's filthy rich and lives in the house of a garang guni man. He pathetic attempts to pick up women thru playin the spiritual father cum overlord of the country is something Song would roll over and die laughing about and Thang start to go in spasms. But to make me look like i was him is totally unacceptable... I would rather smell the underarms of an endless line of hairy bothered silverback gorillas than to be associated to such a character. To tell me lies and encourage me to do dastardly deeds is oh so very into the teachings of Buddha... and then pin them all on me... wow... you are such an adult to be respected.

And by the way, i give respect where its due... not to some arse that tries to show off about everything he does... If you're so damn great why arent you someone really important and not juz a fat sweating boulder? Go and f**k yourself if you think you can step over me... Wanna try to sue me or file some half assed police report? Give me your best shot...

The other person is the desperado... the loser ... the douche... words cant possibly describe a pathetic piece of male genetic scrap. He goes around a gatherin of people introducing himself like a telemarketer during dinner and proceeds to try to get in with the cool guys there and attempt to chat up women thru the introduction. What the f**king hell? Get a damn life you moron... you think you're being friendly and people like you? Hell no... you are more like "ze pest". That cartoon skunk Pepe Le Phew would be the mascot... Its not SDU here... go jerk off in the men's Mr Desperate-to-get-laid... Juz seeing you sickens me and almost make me wanna give up my manhood juz NOT to be associated with you in ANY way...

What is it with these desperadoes? This aint no quentin tarantino film dumbasses. Go and self eject your collective asses into space... earth has no place for you, go find your own kind out there... you are obviously not very human having the skin the thickness of the berlin wall...

Juz slept 3hrs earlier on gettin home... for the past 2 nights have been goin with 4hrs of sleep at nite... my body has been in rigor mortis for the whole of today. And my tolerance is obviously in need of an overhaul... Coz I CANT TAKE ANYMORE OF THIS F**KED UP S**T!!!! &waves fist*

To hell with everything...

t"t)

The Dangers of Alcohol

Right now... i'm having a hangover and a splittin cramp in my right side.
All this because of some "cordon bleu" i was given last nite...

I'm not an "old man liqour" sort of person... And that blend of god knows what really gave me a knock out punch... Never felt so unsteady in like 3years... If i had stayed longer at last nite's "housewarming" I think i would've done a "Fri nite Thang" and started hittin on the hostess...

Walked around the whole payar lebar MRT station for some unknown reason after that before hailing a cab to send my sorry ass home... Then proceeded to bong unintelligible gibberish in my 2 forums... There must've been alot of confused people last nite... My apologies... Arghhh .
I smell of last nite's liqour and definately worse... Augh... i need to soak myself in a vat of detergent before i feel cleansed. Thankfully theres no other half to see me in such a dishevelled and absolutely swine like behaviour.

Still need to clean my room and finish my project today... Gah... still have a damn architectural floorplan to do out. The compiling of the report will be easy takin me a whoppin 30 minutes at maximum... But the drawin's gonna kill me... Make tuesday go away! I want to be left in peace!

Let this be a lesson to you all... Alcohol is bad.... stay away from it unless you're over 18... that age limit was there for a reason... Be safe Kids!

Something to Ponder

Am I the person i was 3 years ago? I've lost alot of me since then...

Finally I accepted conformity and unknowingly blended with the people I actually shunned... yea... I know, its kinda segregatory. I always wanted to be around people that were like me... the english educated, those who could laugh at grosteque contortions of the english language and could communicate at the same level as me... A language Hitler i was indeed. I took the chinese educated and the rest as second class citizens and now here i am tinkering in between the borders of my past and the transformation into the people i kept at bay thru my life...

Ah hah.... the irony of it all... to become what thou once hated. But now I'm worse, i'm an outcast. Between two worlds i will never really ever be part of anymore. Worse still... I've to decide to hold on to the edge or juz let go. I need time to arrange myself and do some soul searching... I've been taught that my brutal segregation was wrong, that i've been humbled by someone greeater than me.

And yet on another front.... a lady... that could turn me upside down with the bat of an eyelid and a look that would bring me to my knees. Someone who could do so much and yet do nothing... with my hands tied i can only stand at my position like a pawn in some huge chess game and wait for a back hand from the heavens to fling me in a direction... But after last night, whatever fair impression i had with her is probably gone due to my reckless alcohol fueled stupor. It seems almost as if that feather winged midget is toyin with me in this game of the heart. As my gates shut he snuck in and lowered the jaw bridge once more.... * swears vengeance*

Asked thang, the longest standing friend i've had, the eternal question...
What sort of person am i to you? The questions of all questions, fully capable of breaking bonds as old as decade or more. His answer surprised me as it was not exactly what i expected. Most would laugh o their grave on seein his answer which i shall not reveal here for fear of cardiac arrests among readers. Yea... after all this time... we are family. And we have each other's back. In the end when it all comes down... when you mess with one of us you mess with all of us.... its all about the bonds forged in rage and tempered in blood and tears that has held us together all these years... Amazing.

Why O Why~

I've like messed up man...

what did i do in my alcohol filled stupor?

Gahhhhhhhhhhh~

Up, up and away~

Rite now... I'm in a pair of shorts and feelin the rush of alcohol to my brain so please excuse if i dun seem to make any sense whatsoever...

Went to walla walla at HV earlier with Mr Ho... turns out he needed a drink to... By chance i met zhengkai and of course saw my dark winged cherub... Mmmmmm ...

It was cool catchin up with the guys... although Mr Ho was gettin a tad irritatin with the eggin. But he had my best interests at heart though... Thanks bro. I will not disappoint you if i can help it...

Now the alcohol is rushing to my brain and i'm gettin a slight tightness there... long time since i had a drink with my bros... and the rush of alochol is a feelin i've long missed... We'll be goin again next weekend. May the party never end!

Thang isnt back yet still... Prak was stoned... in all everyone was stone cold drunk... hahahahahahahaha

Nothin' In Particular And Nothin' In Between

Over the past 24 hrs... I've spent about 18 of that asleep....
"PIG!!!!"
What in the blazes of Heck's unholy flames am i doing with myself? I dont remember myself sleeping so much since after a chalet a ton at someone's place...

I blame Phil... ruler of Heck and S**an's milder brother.... He has whisper tidings of laziness in my ear and has seduced me to his infernal side... I can feel the marks of a manager starting to show within me... Gahhhhhhh ~~~~ Ok... I'm not sure which is more scary... me actting lame or quoting Dilbert. *whams head againts wall*

Will be departing for Holland Village in another hour or so... Got a drinking session with Mr Ho my other partner in criminal sociology that i havent been out with for a long time. I predict a lengthy dehydrating session as we juz hang at the pub and down beer while blow smoke rings into nowhere in particular... A good piece of news is that an angel shall be in the area at the same time... Whether we meet will be up to my luck. Have no idea which pub i'm headed to there.... *Xs fingers*

I need to train Chloe to use the scratch post... She keeps using my easy chair and bed as her scratching areas. And both named items are very valuable to me. So far my parents have gotten pretty much used to her... they let her roam about my place freely and my mom even talks to her. Not bad after all...

National Day is comin up. And so far i havent felt even a teeny bit of love or pride for my country.... Maybe its due to the fact that i havent been to any single of the 20 past national day celebrations in my life. And the fact that i dun really love my country that much... Yea... sure i DO miss this place when i'm overseas but thats coz i miss my friends here not the soil itself. The moment i step into Orchard road i'm at a loss on what to do.... It's like.. been there done that... What's there left to be done here in Singapore except like commit a crime? Furthermore the freedom here is really lacking... feel like in a matrix of somesort where everyone is regulated by a certain set of rules or regulations and that you can only do so much within a certain grid... Set me free~~~~~

Ok... remember earlier that i would leave everything up to my luck? Well... Looks like my luck is down. Mr Ho cancelled on me in the last few minutes.... The deities are givin me signs i guess... Ah well... thats that i guess.

and as a friend of mine would do...

Pft

Since when am I the bad guy?

Ok... i was reading a blog of my friend's and was deeply shocked...

Since when am i the bad guy? What do you mean by smirking " I told ya so, FOOLS"???? Hello... Watto is a friend to me even though he tries my patience... What do you mean by that? I'm not a one to change another, so i steer clear of what you guys do with him but that doesnt mean i'm hiding in a corner smigly grinning at your failures. After all this while you think i wanna juz dropkick him out? If i wanted i would've done so already, you should know me...

All these 8 years and you still think of me this way? I may not be as close as Thang but I was abandoned like Watto too... after sec 3 the only damn arse who actually kept regular contact with me was Thang. Not you, and neither Watto... Hell... i was playin second fiddle all the way... Did i ever once complain? Not once ok. You think i dunno what Watto went thru? You are dead wrong. Judge me for what i said that nite... Hello... how much do you even know me? All you can say is that i'm a comedian that smokes i'll bet...

Dude, get your facts straight. I've been thru worse than Watto... You havent a clue what goes on in my head. And you definately do NOT know me well enough apparently. Yea... go teach Watto the way of life... I dont care.... I have no guilt to atone for in this matter. Watto wasnt close to me so it wasnt a surprise that i drifted away from him. It didnt help him when he contacted me only for the sake of money and yet when we first met up again after all these years did you see me cast him off a building or condemn him in front of all? And you dare say that i'm smirkin all the while over whats happening with him. I can see clearly here the problem.
And its fine with me.

You guys dont know me fine... i take it as 8 years was good while it lasted... but to judge me like this... its 8 years wasted...

My Night With Chloe

No..... its not what you think you filthy animal....

I juz brought home Chloe my ragdoll cat last evening. She's like sooooo princess.... Was like panicking when she threatened to break carrier bag on the way back to my place. Took a cab back pronto and freed her... So far so good save for the fact she woke me up at 5+ in the morning... Gahhhh ...

Fell asleep at my com again last night.... whats up with that?
Its either my easy chair's too comfy or i'm really fatigued for some reason yet unknown to me... Heh? Its the truth... I dunno why I'm so tired... I sleep my 6-8hrs... but still i'm like Resident Evil when i awaken. Any0ne has an explanation please get back to me.... Coz i'm clueless...

Finally met Big Show at SP yesterday... and the thing was he was sittin rite in front of me and didnt see him... I tell you... He's the master of camouflage, or i'm juz plain blind to miss something that big infront of my face :p. Yea yea~ I know... Its most likely the latter...

Went to d/l Tonic's songs... "If You Could Only See" has to be my favourite. Listening to it now... Somehow seems familiar to me... I'm a lyric person so the lyrics have to be meaningful to me. My whole life is basically about music.... You won't see me without my headphones ever... It fills in all the gaps in time and space, and acts as a balm to soothe the soul. Ah yes... music does indeed soothe the savage beast.

Ok... I seriously need to get brainwashed. A G-5 would do it for me rite now... Saw this movie with Jim Carrey and Kate Winslet about a dysfunctional couple who wipe the memories of each other from their brains... I wish that option was available to me. I have a memory like a elephant for some unneccesary stuff... but can delete important stuff in an instant for no apparent reason. What the hell man...

I have a question... When is it exactly the right time to date again? Or even think about it? Is there a international standard? Coz i keep hearin people tell me about this after breakup "time off" thingy and I'm like... Ok..... so, how long is this period? Up to the individual? How would you know when you are ready? Is it the same feeling when you feel like taking a crap?

Things like this make no sense... I need my muse... She makes all these dumb shit melt away... Unfortunately i dunno when i'll ever see her again . Ah well... to quote my ex... "Leave it to fate"

Today will be goin to get my driving thing started. Hope Thang doesnt quit on me last moment... I have the need for speed... God bless when i get behind the wheel.. *cue evil laughter*

Everyone seems to be in love when i'm out of it... Is this some sort of sick joke or a test of my patience? The next cupid i see i will take out with a vengeance.... *cocks shotgun* I'll turn that flying diaper boy into a cloud of feathers. Grrrrr...

Well... the world keeps spinning as i say... And no matter how much you want the time for yourself... It will never be. So get with the program? For those who know me, I never get with da program... hahahaha... but yet maybe finally something will make me conform. We'll see... the best is yet to come....

May the partyin and booze never end...

Blinding Light Of an Insane mind

I'm in my tutorial typing my blog entry out so you can guess how damn bored i am....

Been really busy these few days... tons of projects crushin me into a stupor between procrastination and plain laziness. hahahahahaha... At the same time been gettin my cat's new home set up and redoing my marine tank setup. Finally got my live rocks last nite as well as a few new tenants... I think i shall give up my idea of lionfishes for the time being... They're juz too delicate for my liking. Replaced them with baby sharks and a moray eel... Will look for more tenants when the time permits...

My princess Chloe will be coming home today god willing... Hopefully there will be no last minute change in plans or random acts of god in the vicinity of today. Cleaned up my room nice and tidy for her and setup her furniture... Hope she likes the leopard skin scratch post/play post i got for her... tryin to find a place to stow the chairs that are takin up so much space in my room. Can't wait to bring her home.... She looks so princess like... and from what i heard she aint no Princess Fiona... more like that Prince Charming... so I definately would be her slave... hahahahaahahahahahaha..

Talked to my ex last nite... good to know everything is back as before. She had better take it easy before her thyroid acts up again...

Was supposed to have a chat with Jo last nite too... but she looked busy so i just sat in my corner and kept quiet. But was accosted by the Terrible Trio instead and engaged in a useless war of endless banterin of insults... hahahahahaha... demolished the competition as usual. At least my mouth is as sharp as ever *evil grin*... Meetin up with one of the trio later... we shall reminesce our secondary school mischief days later at chinatown as i pick up my princess.

Speaking of princesses... heh heh... Angelfied man.... angelfied...

Looks like this weekend is gonna be another tight one... Hopefully i can push me and Song's barbaric driunkin session to Fri nite then be free for most of the day for Thang's Jini Sat... hahahahaha... Sun will be cat day as i go to Geylang to look at pussies... That sounds wrong but its not what you think you damn perv... I'm gonna look at more cats... the breeder happens to live there. Hopefully i wont spend to much time there so i can get back home for a quick cat nap before i go out for dinner.

I never valued my weekend so much before... Maybe coz time is more tight for me nowadays then back in the service. I almost miss NS life...

Hmmm... i think i'll save a few more mths for my hp... In the meantime i think i'll juz splurge abit on clothing... specifically a pair of levis, some tees and a good decent shirt.

I think i've really gone cuckoo... been calling anyone older than me by 10yrs or more "Sir/Ma'am"... What is wrong with me? I'm a civilian for crying out loud...

Handed in my application for my ITP to 'Nam... Hopefully i get in... what am i saying? I dunno why... I'm very much into sports and adventure these days... even with a slight hankering for clubing... Insanity has taken control... *AaaOooGahhhhh*

Love hurts

Why does love always seem to hurt?

You will only get hurt by the people you love and get destroyed by them.
Whats wrong with the situation here?

This is crap.