The last 24 hours have not been good....


was tripping very badly. Never attempt to substitute sleeping pills with... other stuff.


When i'm not in control, my devil comes out... and you don't deserve to meet him.


How long can one man fight the darkness, before he finds it in himself?

On the way to work caught a glimpse of Singapore Idol...

May all 1001 hindu deities strike down the wretched fart that came up with the Idol idea...

God... what a fucking torture to the senses.

I still don't get how people can get so wild about the contestants... the female ones i can

understand, coz deep inside, the guys just think about screwing them till they shout

"God!!" in a Mariah Carey pitch tone. Have to admit.... some of them aren't bad looking,

but that doesn't save the shitty songs they sing.

The guys however... how can any girl even bear to scream their name in public is a

serious puzzle to me. Look at the Twohill guy... He covers his face with his hair for a

damned good reason.... He's FUGLY! I would rather see a ninety year old Jim Carrey's

arse lipsynching than have to look at that guy's face for an entire song. I saw him sing

half a song before getting of the bus fortunately... thru out the whole thing he kept

flicking his hair here and there... like WTF... cover your face. Your face isn't what we

want to see. Plus whats with the black fingernail polish??? It all makes sense now.... the
long hair, nail polish and flicking.... HE'S A FAGGOT!!!


They showed a part where he was fishing with his dad and he looked more like some 16
year old girl at a pony farm. The most relaxing part about his part in Idol was when he

was talking to gurmit? about whatever crap that is on his faggot mind, and you could

only see his teeth under a bunch of hair. I kept thinking of funny shit that would happen

to him in that situation... like falling off the stage and breaking some front teeth so he

could be a fag AND toothless etc...

I'm mean. Who cares?

There was this other guy Idol loser who was on the live SMS thing.... looked equally

meow meow as Twolumps. Kept showing his picture next to his replies, like i want to

know how he looks like.... and people actually pay money to engage in dumb babble

with him. I highly suspect mediacorp paid people to cheer and shout for the male

contestants. Makes no sense otherwise so many females are that moronic or blind. If

that truly was the case, i would say the singaporean genetic pool is doomed.

I think i shall comment on every single Idol contestant i am unfortunate to catch a glimpse of on the godforsaken TV mobile. Its quite fun actually....

Sometimes its not how much a person does, but by the quality of what is done.

this goes esp. to matters of the heart. think that thru. good night.

watched the finals of the WC...

Italians impress me after being actors and mafiaso for the whole bloody shindig. French? Only zidane and ribery deserve my respect that i rarely give. The whole bloody rest of the fogs can go eat shite pate and die la.

Is it me or is france supposed to be a caucasian country? Then why the fuck are there only 4 men i've seen playin that are white? The rest are just bloody former french colony africans that can run like antelope and butt around like rhinos. I see no other talent in most of the french midfield besides running. Zidane seems to be doing most of the work while the tribesman do their best to run with the ball in the right direction.... One guy's name reminded me of a case of stomach problem... did nothing but elbow, shove, tug etc etc... This is a soccer match... not a race to tackle a wildebeast to use as dowry for the only virgin in the village.

And Henry is the biggest asshole i've seen on the pitch next to cristiano ronaldo. I've seen so much performances from him that i'm starting to believe he's a stand in actor thats undergone cosmetic surgery to replace the real henry thats being tied to a goalpost somewhere in england by an insane arsene wenger. Did i say the acting was good? hell no... its like watching arnold schwarzenegger trying to dramatize macbeth. To the less literate wise people... that means : CANNOT MAKE IT LA.

Second place ronaldo is also another bastard actor... act like lan jiao then play like a chee bye. Sink in one penalty and act like he just dribbled from russia into the oppositions goalpost. Eh.... you're over rated and greasy as last night's KFC bucket la...

Overall, the WC stinks...

hey FiFa... do you understand KELONG???

'nuff said.

And finally,

I've had enough of being your comforter... why are you still here?

For I'm only Human

I've not been myself these days. I've done bad things... And I'm truly sorry for what i've done. But sometimes regrets can come too late.


But I have to walk on with my head held high and not die.


I'm not the boy i was so many years ago.


I've slept 3 hours or less and have a headache, for some reason i can't sleep and keep checking my HP. I dreamt i had a message from someone i missed and am afraid of and woke up but turns out it was only a figment of my imagination.


I guess this is the way things ought to be. Better for everyone.


Work was horrid last night. Worked practically non stop and even had to take time off to lean on the counter when i was printing reciepts. Can't talk about the number of losers there.... I'm so stoned till i've lost my sarcastic humor.


Bad luck has hit me like a ton of bricks and i'm wondering if i should stay home for the rest of my life to just not get swept away by the tides of unluckiness. I need some bomoh magic and i mean serious bomoh magic.


Anyone knows of fucking powerful good luck charms? Like wearing a rubber chicken on your head and painting yourself green running around the corridors shouting "prata"? If that guarantees luck to me i would do it.


18 hours to go before i can sleep again...

Give me strength... anyone... anything...