Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Turning point or another prank?

Thanks to all who gave me words of encouragement and for being excited where i'm not.

apologies for my words of honesty i say when i'm in times of thinking too much.

I'm happier these days but that can't really be good news.

Whenever i am something comes up to remind me that life does throw you lemons without that pitcher of ice and sugar. On the bambina aka elinda issue... i'll be very honest and say i believe she's just being friendly. Why?

1. I'm not Mr tall, dark and handsome.
2. She has plenty of Mr tall, dark and handsomes around her.
3. If a girl doesnt take fancy to any of them its likely she doesn't want to be attached or she's not straight.
4. Life is not that good to me.

so yea... don't need to be all excited like terrier pups in a room full of superballs. I fear u all may be more disappointed than me. I'm used to this after the many trials and tribulations i've been thru these years. So if it turns out as another of Life's pranks I'll just laugh it off and have another of them life-shortening death sticks.

I've to admit she's a very nice person after texting with her these days... but frankly speaking... i've not business with such people. I would have done something really really good like curing cancer or bringing world peace to have someone like that. And i've not done anything like that to my knowledge...

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

the way I am

very straight forward I am...

so hence... "A" u can do what you want to do... I don't care anymore. Seriously... After so much effort u put in to make me a hard cold shell to you, i'm happy to say u've gotten your wish. I wont give a damn what u do to urself so do enjoy.

On the other hand... i'm kinda stagnant in mood now. Not really fucked nor am i happy. Met some girl at work... thanks to some over zealous colleagues... I am the owner of her number. Sms her abit... seems nice enough. But frankly speaking... can't say i like or don't like her. Just engaging in chit chat here and there. Maybe i'll get a chance to get her out for a cuppa. She said yes but so far we've been unable to get the meeting in progress. I know alot of my friends are hoping and praying something will work out from this but please save it... all pretty much depends on the weather.

And to top it off, theres this girl i never mentioned at school. Ever since a somewhat unusual experience on the train we've always laughed at the sight of each other... only today did we actually speak to each other and get introduced. Think coz today was in more or less a zesty mood. So had some crazy in me that had to get out.

Thong's birthday is coming up. I dunno what i should get him. Call me petty or whatever but he still owes me a birthday gift from last year. I told him to forget about it but he refused so he dug his own grave and now has all forgotten about it and will again promise me something for my birthday THIS year when i hand him a present on his coming birthday. This is from a guy i've known 10 years and i havent once recieved a birthday gift from him though he's gotten a few from me.

This brings me to the topic of birthday gifts.

Its damn fucked to decide whether or not to give a birthday gift to someone coz at the same time you put this person under stress and obligation to get you a gift on yours. At the same time that person has to top your present. In the end its more of a headache.

Normally i dont mind if i get a gift or not coz i dont really celebrate my birthday. But in thong's case its more of the promise i'm somewhat ticked off about. Even if he got me a new pet army ant i wouldnt mind, its the thought that counts afterall. But its the fact he could just forget about me and yet every year can get something for other people. So yea... i'm somewhat pissed off.

But however i'm far too polite to fuck him as he is a friend. He hasn't done anything further YET to piss me off to that point so i'll leave it as that. However i would say wont be getting him something like last year. Maybe a 12 pack of Gillette Mach 3 blades....

Thursday, January 05, 2006

spiders all in tune

arghh.... like got so many stuff due tommorrow and i havent finished half of it...
its like i'm dead. so so dead.

And here i am blogging instead of doing the work... great job hombre...

basically need to get some stuff unloaded. I still can't forget her despite the fact she's les... like seriously i'm like quite pathetic... falling for a les. Lowest of the low.

Life is real shitty this way.

Met some interesting people anyways and ironically they turn out to be female. Clare and Mindy. I met at Li si's party. Talked quite abit with Clare on matters on religion and immortality. I think i pretty much scared her somewhat with my theories. I'm really sorry. My brain kinds of gives out these kinda devilish crap occasionally.

And Li si, if u're reading this don't worry... i won't have a picture quiz.

hahaha.

Work this weekend and monday and tues... so dead.
They had better pay me this week. I'm dry already.

realised the weather is unpredictable.
I really dunno how some guys can treat women so bad... and i dunno how some can put up with it.
Be a man and pick on someone your own damn size. Innately i'm dying to hammer this one particular guy who is giving my msn friend so much stress. If no one can talk sense into you i'll have to try with a large wrench and loosen that nut in your arse. You're damn lucky to have her, capiche? If you hurt her i will hurt you in ways you can't imagine.

right. that being done its time to get back to work.

Monday, January 02, 2006

happily confused 2006

For 6 years i've looked for copies of an original. And only now do i realise the original is what've I've always been looking for.

confusing? Its a happy confusion. At the same time the original is just so close and yet some times so distant.

The weather changed 6 years ago and i lost... will the weather be on my side this year?