Friday, December 30, 2005

mad days revisited

like blogging at this hour.... how unlike me...

heh. about my previous post... well... its the truth but lets just leave it as a warning and not as a direct hit. Kinda tired and bothered that day.

Anyways yesterday was blisteringly uneventful... only caps were the long msn chat with adeline in the early hours after work and the late night blitzkrieg at walas.

Good to finally catch up with the busy tired semi twin of mine in msn... don't get to chat with her much these days so that few hours after work on msn was great.

Afterwhich was msn with angel... I'm becoming a real msn freak...

Then went over to Imperial at 10++ at night to help out and see see. Hahaha. Thankfully didnt buy anything this time.

Finally an impromptu drop over at Walas for my probable last time ever. Had fun...
Some stuff happened... but not gonna say it out. It was good. But then again... so much depends on the weather.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

...

trust is something very important in my books.

hence if you dont trust me then dont. But don't insult my integrity. Hate being called a liar.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Looking for 22:20

like its been awhile...

its friggin 0325hrs and i cant sleep. Well... isnt tt the usual? Got my new ipod. Works like a dream but the flaw is tt the bugger charges automatically when u update it so i sense a battery change aint too far away.

Feel wasted no matter how much i try to rest these bones... maybe coz of my sleeping problem, well... staying clear of medication before i get too reliant on it and anyway my supply is running low.

Have a pile of assignments to do... doing a one man show for the myriad group projects i've chosen to do solo is really one hella job. Grades slipping... at a 3.16 GPA now compared from the 3.8 i was last year. Gotta really wedgie myself and get the data flowing again. Somehow just dont have the mood to do anything.

Realised i talk to angel practically every freakin day... must stop disturbing her at work. heh. I just feel uncomfortable being too chummy with attached women... u never know what jealous manimals boyfriends can be. Speaking of which... Song has been pestering me to get a gf since last monday... sheesh... like i have the time to socialise? I dont even friggin know what movies are showing now or even remotely know where Carl Jr is... ask me how to whip up a Space 2001 or a Screaming and i can tell u in detail the amounts and concoction. Hahaha... lifeless me. Even my drinking has suffered... can't drink for nuts without having a bite to eat first. If this goes on i'm gonna topple after a LIT.

Can't blame Song for pestering me about the woman thing... probably feels like many others that i should get attached and "settle down" so to speak. Figure a lady in my life would make me laugh abit louder, smile a little more and add more life in this brain dead carcass that i am now. Thanks guys... but with all the shit i've been thru with the opposite sex i just dont really know if its worth the effort. Girlsfriends have been nothing but banes to my life. Yea i did become happy for awhile... then it became more like an ever tightening noose... Why do women get so possesive? Only thought guys did that. Couldn't hang out with friends, couldn't spend time with my pets and even less for work. Only a handful of women have struck me to be a guy's dream come true for a girlfriend. One is adeline, another is angel, then this classmate of mine, dear zhen and of course theres Jinx.

Speaking of that last one... haha... like the soda pop she is, popped up suddenly back in my life out of the blue. Went out a coupla times... was interesting... she's changed somewhat from years past. Much easier to talk to her now since she's revealed her similar crazy side to mine so i can speak freely for a change unlike with other ladies where i have to maintain the usual boring self of mine. Can't say we've been totally innocent... its shameless the way we flirt but then... whats new? xp.

On the other hand theres the lil piglet i have to take care of occasionally, ling... but i swear if she asks me to sponsor her again for shopping i'm gonna do pirouttes. Tres annoying at times since the only women i sponsor wld be my mom and my ex gfs. But then she makes up for all that by checking up on me occasionally on msn to TRY to get me to sleep though i often just set my msn to away and watch DVDs till morning.

No lack of female attention i seem to have? hahahaha... lemme say this... if u won the national indon lottery would it make u a happy person?

And no... i will not turn gay. period.

next one tt asks me that will be given the fist of death.

Met with francis. Looks as gay as ever and of course as tolerant of my shit. Sorry dude. I practice tough brotherly love... hahahaha. Its wise we only meet bi-annually or else u may actually go insane from my verbal jabs. Which of course you know i dont mean.

Look at the time.... heard 6 repeats of "Sweet Home Alabama"... time to hit the DVDs.... signing off.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Can't teach old dogs new tricks

Its been an eventful week...

Learnt that am goin to be working at Zouk Out so will be situated on some tiny platform dishing out vodka redbulls and what not for 12hrs straight. Oh goodie.

Had very little sleep as per usual. When not working am busy at the keyboard banging out reports and projects or hitting the books for my upcoming tests. I seriously havent had a life for so long... so it was natural for me to hyper-ize during my only two glimpses of outside life this week.

Met with Denise, the brat princess and ruler of "meh". Was supposed to be for dinner... however, she neglected to tell me it would be with her parents, brother, bishounen sluts and extended familia at LTN Siglap. At first I was some what... reluctant... as i'm always with around parents of any kind and new people. However, thanks to some egging from Denise I was a shadow of my former self. Ended up having two teas, a milo and several beers with her parents and the familia. And I gave Her Highness a nice handprint on her arm when I misjudged my own strength. Sorry about that.

Next came my "date" with an old friend. Can't say I've ever entertained someone like that before in Starbuck's. Undoubtably many customers thought we were somewhat insane... mistake on our part for choosing to sit inside instaed of out. The interior acoustics were obviously not meant for sustained loud guffaws. Like... note to myself... no more Walas stories in public... especially about the "Siao kia".

This unfortunately was to repeat itself at Thai Express during dinner too... I think I shouldn't converse during meal time. xp

Brief these times were... but it really gave me back a part of myself thats been missing all this while... the insanely happy one.

Then I guess the reason for the AWOL persona is that I will never change.

No matter what i say or how i say about how I really don't give a fuck anymore about people. I somehow still do.

Adeline, I don't know what has happened between us. But I made a promise that I won't break to you. I won't give up on you despite how far things are along now. As Alfred put it best: "Never". I will always be there rain or shine. You may have blocked me or deleted me from MSN and ignore my texts. But when you are in need I will still be there. This is an oath i make to myself for everyone that I've had the fate to find faith in. From Song to even Angel whom I know the shortest. Because I'm a tenacious bastard, and giving in isn't what i do easily.

Maybe its just the wrong place and the wrong time. Somehow we all meet someone we in the end wish we didnt meet, not to say coz we hate 'em, but that to lose what rapport you had with each other due to just plain circumstance.

As Angel said, i will always be a nice guy. And old dogs like me can never learn new tricks.