Christmas Day

Havent slept well for a week now...

But still managed to drag myself out of the house and to the east to settle some business before goin to deliver a christmas present.

unfortunately I found I had a few hours to kill before i could send it... so was walking around bedok central.

Felt the chills so bought some smokes. Ended up smoking alot since I'm sick. Like poison always kills the germs.... I know I will be corrected for this but who cares... Not looking to live forever.

Library was closed so I was potentially gonna have to walk around the place for a few hours. Fortunately there was a LAN shop open so went in to kill time... havent been to one in years.... Was completely lost like some chinaman in Timbuctoo with no hands.

Well managed to finally deliver... was worth the effort to see that smile.

Met cherie and chris at cineleisure. Was like an idiot as I turned up last minute and they were all gonna watch a movie and I was just some extra standing around holding his dick.

Wanted to head home anyways... had a monster headache and was firing up. But I had gotten an 'extra' present in my puzzle and had to send it back... Its ok. I get sick most of the time now anyways...


So... back home figuring out the puzzle... never been good at this but since i can't sleep, it'll kill the time and make me forget my headache and fever.

Clarifications:

1. I have ah beng side burns coz my hair grew too fast and i'm couldn't be bothered to trim them.

2. I have an attitude because I was born with it.

3. If i'm away on MSN means i really am not around.

4. I'm not looking angry.... its just that i'm not smiling.

5. No. I don't play around with my customers.

6.And no... not with the cashiers either.

7. I don't ignore you when i'm at work... I appreciate the fact you look for me and brighten my day but i've got work to do at times. Its not coz i don't like you.

An early Xmas gift from me to you.....

Look up and feel the tingling of the rain as it burns your face ever so slightly,

Smell the fumes of rot of the trash you left behind.

Hear the night cries of a million children who havent a god in the world,

Of fragile hearts that shatter and tears that fall every minute.

Can you look in the eyes of a mother who lost her son,

Or comfort the orphan that can't afford a coffin.

Walk thru the streets and know that something in this world isn't right.

Then think about the gift you have in your hand.

Merry Christmas

My Desire....

The Black Patriot

Plus of course another.....

Wonderful Wake Up

How I love mondays....

wake up to hear she's been crying... like the sun hasn't even risen and the shits all a'coming already.

I hate it when women cry....

No... not coz of the noise or the look... its coz I feel so fucking rubber legged when they do. And I do hate the feeling.

you can give me broken toys or gadgets to fix and i'd probably have it up and running in awhile after some references to the manual. But give me a spoilt human and i'd have alot of fucking problems i tell you.

I'm goin to fail my FYP unless i can suddenly become a total genius and vomit out 5 sets of tests within this holiday to save my ass. Since i know nothing about the exact process... i'm so screwed.
Well well... life is such a bed of roses... Alll i have to look forward to is this wednesday and christmas ( surprising huh?). But somehow I've got the premonitions of screw ups on these 2 days...

sheesh..... let me have a smooth sailing till february please?

You stubborn, I stubborn.

You're sick so i give medicine. If you're mad then be mad.





And god do i hate meeting parents....

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared,
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile, (may your smile)
Shine on, (shine on)
Don't be scared, (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm,

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them someday,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

Get up, (get up)
Come on, (come on)
Why you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change what's been and gone

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them someday.
Just take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

We're all of the stars,
We're fading away.
Just try not to worry,
You'll see us someday.
Just take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out...

Only mortal humans can slay the devils....

God : Hello. Did you call me?

Me: Called you? No.. who is this?

God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy
now. I am in the midst of something.

God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I cant find free time. Life has become
hectic.It's rush hour all the time.

God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets
you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still cant figure out. By the way, I
was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by
giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach
you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?

God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about
yesterday.You are worrying because you are analyzing.
Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty..

God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold
cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through
trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life
become better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She
gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why cant
we be free from problems?

God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial
Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes
from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know
where we are heading..

God : If you look outside you will not know where you are
heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking
inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than
moving in the right direction. What should I do?

God : Success is a measure as decided by others.
Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the
road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead.
You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how
far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what
you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God : when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they
prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have
truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.

God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you
want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are
here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a
process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present
with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to
start the New Year with a new sense of inspiration.

God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe
your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to
solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful
if you know how to live .


*P.S Dug this out from a time where I was kinda more religious.
Piece of crap or good motivational advice?

God bless me.... i'm running critically low....

peng san-ing in progress...